So I have no friends, literally the only human interaction I have are with my fiancé and baby. Other than that I only see other people/interact when we go out.

I've been feeling alone since we brought the baby home. Nothing went as planned, his birth wasn't the way I wanted it. I didn't have my skin to skin. & breastfeeding sucked. After 3 weeks it got better & that lifted my spirits up.

Now I'm going back to feeling alone. Sometimes it feels like all he wants to do it have sex with me. Without asking how my day was or if I'm tired.

Mind you, I stay up with the baby. I don't really ask him to do much. Maybe a diaper change/burp occasionally. He's been helping out more since I work on Saturday & Sunday but when I come back it goes back to that. Me feeling alone & him just wanting sex.

I cry myself to sleep maybe 2/7 nights, just because I feel overwhelmed. & feel like I can't express my feelings to him. Why? Because we end up arguing.

Its gotten to the point that when he does argue, I just agree with him.

I've just been feeling super down lately. Alone. & since I have no place to vent or even person I decided to vent here. I'll probably do it more often so that my feelings don't consume me.