About two months ago my long distance (now ex) boyfriend of two years cheated on me by dating someone else for about two weeks before I found out, and before we were supposed to move in together. I honestly thought I would never get over it. I'd never trusted or loved anyone more. I honestly still cared about him even after he cheated, like I thought he was the epitome of men for me. I felt so deeply about the whole thing that it actually brought my severe childhood anxiety back. I wouldn't eat, sleep, move, etc. I just sat in bed lurking on his new relationship with this girl that would send me on a spiral (not good, I know). I've been getting better, and suddenly I felt the urge to look at both of their various social media accounts, and honestly, for once I didn't feel a thing. Although I'm still not totally over what he did, I'm now defo over him. It's like these love blind, Stockholm syndrome esque goggles were taken off and I realized he's really a hot ass mess. I no longer found him attractive, he wasn't the same person I'd fallen in love with, he's perpetually screwing up his own life and relationship right now, and I realized he was never really that great of a boyfriend anyway. Sure we had good memories that I'll cherish but he lowkey sucked. Also I've regained confidence, like being in a toxic relationship with him took a toll on me physically and emotionally but I'm taking my life back. Someone I never thought I'd get over has officially become nothing to me. Also I realized I was whipped on a boy who was a two constantly making me feel like a one