So, I normally don't like to share this kind of stuff, but this seems like a pretty supportive atmosphere. I am 29, 5'4", and 189lbs. I have been chubby my whole life, but this is the most I've ever weighed. My husband and I decided to start TTC, which makes e very happy, but I really want to be healthier and have healthier habits.

The problem is...I'm struggling with anxiety and depression. Things have been really hard lately. I started going to counseling for the first time ever, but I don't feel like it's helping much. Anyhow, I can be lazy sometimes don't get me wrong...but I literally can't get myself started. About 3-4 years ago I weighed 167. I was exercising all the time, eating clean, meal planning, etc. I know that if I applied myself I could be successful...I just don't know how to kickstart it. I literally just want to lay around and sleep because I'm just sad and tired. I'm really lost in this cycle.

Anyone have a similar experience or any advice? I've always embraced the fact that I'll never be skinny, I don't want to be skinny...but right now I'm unhealthy and I'm embarrassed by my body.