I didn't want too be this Mother

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My ex husband and I don't see eye to eye that's why he is my ex. He has always been selfish never caring about others. He has straightened up the past four years and started trying harder to be a father. The kids were starting to get used to seeing their dad regularly. I have always tried to push time for him to spend with our kids.

Today I received a call from one of his friends asking if I had heard anything from him in which I hadn't. They said they had a message from him earlier in the morning that he was going to run his truck into a tree. He has been going through a hard time lost his job good job had to take a minimum wage job. Got evicted shortly after he lost his job. Three of his friends committed suicide. So I told them to call the police and have them do a welfare check. The last thing I want to do is have to tell my children that their father passed.

I hadn't heard anything so I contacted adult protective services and explained he had been trying to hurt his self.

They asked my relationship to him is said he was my children's father and his ex wife. They said I shouldn't release my children to him till I know how mentally stable he is. In which I had no intentions too. They said that it would be in my best interest to have an investigation opened in him in regards to his parenting time. At first I was hesitant until I talked to his friend again.

When I talked to his friend he told me that he had been drinking heavily for the past two months since his last friend passed. He had started using drugs. I had not a clue of any of this the last couple months he said he had to work and the kids went and seen their aunt instead. I feel horrible for reporting him but he is having a downward spiral. He is hitting rock bottom and I'm afraid I'm going to have to tell my kids their dad has passed. I never wanted to keep my

Kids from their dad and I don't know how to explain to them what is going on. They are 11 and 8 and it's hard to see them hurt. I pray he keeps it together for them. But I need some advice on what to do. I know he needs help but I do too I'm stuck to let our children know. My husband is trying his best but it's hurting him to see the kids ask questions.