This is my 3rd pregnancy. I have no children yet. My first pregnancy ended at exactly 8 weeks when I naturally miscarried.

My second pregnancy was ectopic and ended around 7 weeks. I had my right tube removed.

So this is my 3rd times the charm!! This time I'm 8 weeks and 5 days!! I've never felt this pregnant before. With both of the others, my symptoms were very mild. Not this baby! He/she reminds me things are different and I love it!!

The first time, we were so excited and told my HUGE family at around 5-6 weeks. We were going to go public at 8 weeks, but we lost the baby the DAY we planned to announce.

Losing our "buddy" emotionally drained our entire family.

The 2nd pregnancy was only a few months after the first and we told family early again, but that was even more short lived because the ectopic quickly had me wind up at the hospital.

My whole family and my husbands came and loved on us and mourned our loss and our wounded hope.

By this point, I'm done. I was tired of being the problem. I had other family members get pregnant in the same time frame and had healthy pregnancies. I felt like a giant rain cloud over my family.

One year later, this time, I want to be able to give my family some good news. I just can't take them on that roller coaster again. It's too much.

So no one in my family knows. A few coworkers know (hard to hide it at work) but that's it.

Inside, I hate not telling my mom and sister, but I just want to be able to share happy news. I know that even after 12 weeks there isn't a guarantee, but it will be more than I've ever been able to give them.

In the back of my mind, if I were to lose this baby before 12 weeks, I'll tell my family then. At least I don't have to see the joy in their eyes and then and then all the pain. 😞

BUT I really do have a good feeling about this one. I hope my family isn't hurt that I haven't told them for 3 months. :/

Can anyone relate? Am I wrong?