I know I'm crazy

👨‍👩‍👧‍👦 • 29, DH 30, DS 2 years, DD 2 months! ❤

I am only 8 dpo and I know it's too early to show on a test... but it doesn't stop me from trying. when that negative shows up I feel the ultimate defeat like I'm out for the rest of the month. It's like my mindset wants to defy the odds. if I'm pregnant a test should show any day now. I tell myself I won't test until 10 dpo or until AF is late. but I wake up and think... what if today is the day I would get the positive?? I hate being this way 😢