Best hubby in the world!

After getting three feint positive pregnancy tests and then AF deciding to show up a day late and crush us both I found myself not wanting to get out of bed this morning. My husband came in and tried smothering me with kisses but the last thing I wanted was to be touched. I have been feeling so defeated and discouraged. I know 5 months of trying isn't that long but it's crushing as we move into almost half a year. About forty five minutes later my husband came upstairs and told me he had a surprise for me. I told him I wasn't up for it and he picked me up and took me to the stairs. Downstairs he set up a pamper station to give me a pedicure and do a face mask together AND he had run out to grab my favorite iced coffee and chicken salad from Dunkin Donuts. I feel like I am one of the luckiest women in the world. Excuse the mess in the picture, I need to finish cleaning! I'm not sure what we're going to do for the future because I can't keep getting my hopes up like this and being crushed. I don't want to get back on birth control, but I really don't want to keep "trying" anymore. I'm done with opks and "fertile weeks." I really made a conscience effort this month to not track or stress. We had such a fun month which I suppose made me get my hopes up even higher. I am just so thankful to have such a wonderful man by my side being my number one support!