The Blues

Is anyone suffering from baby blues besides me? I feel like nothing is going right and my SO isn't being understanding at all. It seems like I'm crying a lot:

#1 I had to have an emergency c section bc my contractions wouldn't progress so I already feel like my body betrayed me and I wanted to have baby naturally.

#2 My uterus isn't going down the way it should per my midwife (I'm about 1 week and 6 Days post op) and I'm having to go to the dr every 5-6 days to make sure my body is doing what it's supposed to do😞

#3 My LO isn't getting a deep enough latch so he's not getting the amount of breast milk he needs and is falling asleep at the breast, and he has to also go back to the doctor every 4-5 days until his weight gets up, so I'm having to supplement by pumping and bottle feeding (something I really didn't want to do at all)

#3.5 In addition to my LO not getting a deep enough latch it's causing me to get backed up which really hurts and makes me feel crappy so I have to pump more to feel relief and my body is producing way more milk than what baby needs and it's a never ending cycle, etc...(I'm sitting here with cabbage leaves in my damn bra)

#4 It seems like every other day I waste a massive amount of breast milk by just being clumsy or the earth suddenly shifts and all of a sudden I'm seeing my precious pumped goodness spilling all over the floor😡😢

#5 When I'm having a moment and need consoling all my SO can say is "It'll be ok" and he knows that drives me fucking nuts and then he gets frustrated, I get frustrated etc...we've ended the last few nights by not speaking to each other...