Crying alone don't really like to show emotions at home. Feel like my bones are deteriorating from the inside my mom has ms and ugh I don't even want to explain everything going on in my life my heart is aching so bad I'm hysterical my anxiety is sky high my wrists shoulders and beck hurts I feel like I'm gonna grow old and not be able to do all the things I've wanted to do since I was young because my bones just feel so old and weak I'm always tired I feel useless and broken plus I'm ttc and as much as god knows I want a baby, surprisingly that's not what I'm crying about tonight. But that's a part of the stress in my life. My heart is aching so so so badly I feel like I'm letting my whole family down I always thought I was the strong one who can hold the family down. But god help us all omg. I'm just having a melt down right now I really realy need to hear something positive because I don't know what to do right now I feel so stuck and like there's a golf ball in my throat. God help me please. And I can't even help but to feel pathetic on top of it all. Oh my god I don't know what to do I really don't know.