ARE WE DONE????

Been in this ldr for 4.5 years. Now I don't want to be bothered with, left alone. I haven't seen him since June, before I had my out patient procedure (I had a colposcopy). He calls everyday even when I don't want to talk to him he thinks I'm seeing someone else, I just don't feel like being bothered with. anyways, so I'm like 4.5 years, there's nothing. He doesn't want the things I want, so I'm ready to throw in the towel...he wants me to continue to love him, I can do that from a distance. He doesn't want any children, we've talked about moving in together, but I don't want to now, he wants me in my own place, if I have to do all of that, I'm not going anywhere. I haven't really met his family, he doesn't have any children and isn't married. I'm getting bored and restless. I wanted to meet his family(especially during the holidays because we don't spend any time together during the holidays), but he says only when it gets serious, so why am I still here 4.5 years later. I guess it's time for me to go then, I get it. So he's playing this good man card that I'm tired of hearing, so I get it, but that's not what I'm talking about, I want more, I want more than a companionship or seems like I'm just a fuck buddy, but he says it isn't. We do the couple-ly things, but its getting boring, nothing is spontaneous, it's standard. I'll try to spice things up to make it different, but he's stuck in his ways of doing things and its turning me off. I'm not satisfied nor pleased, I feel like I'm just there, single as ever, just me...me😒.