worried 😩😩

I am 39 yrs old and I'm 2 weeks late for AF and my breasts are producing a milky white liquid when pressed on and I can't seem to get over the tired feeling all the time, I've slept more in the past month than I have all year it seems. now you are probably thinking that I'm pregnant and I can see why,but are there any other women like me that would be scared to take a test in fear of a negative result? I'm sure I am sounding crazy but I'm just so afraid of another let down. we've been trying for almost 6-8 months and maybe we've accomplished what we set out to do but I can't help the fact that I'm scared of disappointment. any suggestions?