My boyfriend and I live together, altogether we have 4 kids.. and we do have every other weekend to ourselves. He goes out of town for work every week for a while during summers, business is busy. He comes home every other night if he's not too far from home. I just hate him being gone though, at all. I'm absolutely terrified home alone at night, and I never sleep good. Anyways I know this man loves me, I KNOW he wouldn't hurt me.. I just.. I need for affection? I do get plenty but the past couple of months with work and life in general we've just been so busy that we're not slowing down and enjoying the moments together, in love. I've told him I need more intamicy and he IS trying. BUT knowing he's going to leave again for work, and I'm still feeling the way I do especially when he is gone. I can't shake the way it makes me feel and enjoy us while he's home and be genuinely HAPPY. All I know to do is to suck it up, because it WON'T be this way forever.. I just literally have no control over my emotions and want to give up. I'm not going to though, this is my man and who I want to stand beside in the hard times, because the good times are more than worth it. I just don't want to end up pushing my sweet man away with my uncontrollable feelings. Sorry y'all, I really just needed to vent, and breathe and get it out.