so I have been with this guy for a year and a half meet and got attached to his kids we was living together and my uncle and his grandpa died with in 3 days of each other so he went to Cali for the funeral and I get a call saying him and the kids are moveing to Cali and he wants me to come but I wasn't ready so we decied to try and do long distance he said that he was gonna get a job and everything he has yet to get a job and he just chills with his family while in in Washington healing from getting in a car accident and all he can ask when we talk is am I coming to see him so last night I broke up with him and it was the hardest thing i have ever done and I am also still in love with someone and I feel like such a horrible person but I just don't understand why it took me so long to realize its I feel like such a idiot