Ongoing depression and anxiety

Katie

Hi I'm from the uk, really just looking for help and advice or atleast someone to listen. I've had anxiety, depression and panic disorder since i was 12(now 15) everything has just got so much worse. The is about 2 people I can trust to talk to about it as most people say "it's all in your head". Panic attacks will get me to the point where I'm bed bound to afraid to leave my room, I cry myself to sleep and sometimes on the really bad days ending it all seems the only way out. I could be with loads and loads of friends but I'd feel so alone. It's like I'm trapped the old me anyway. I worry about everything no matter what the situation. I've had Anxiety for ages now and depression followed on from a side affect of that. I'm at the point where I don't know what to do anymore the pain is physical and mental. I can't deal with the pain and all the sympathy people assume giving a hug will make it all better, but it doesn't. I'm clueless on how to get out of this vicious circle the pain has got too much. Xxx