!! TMI INCLUDING PIC !! help

Okay I'm 5+3 postpartum and my poops have been painful, I'm so sure I have internal haemorrhoids, is there any way I can fix this? Every time I poop it hurts so bad because I only poop every 3 days.. I've tried dulcolax to help with constipation but this was the outcome (picture) I still bled and it gave me the worst cramps! Please don't tell me to go to doctor because that is my last option, I really don't want one looking at my bum hole. Anything I can do to solve this problem please??