Nervous about doctor

What the heck is wrong with me. This is pregnancy #4 for us, the three previous ones were miscarriages(last one was June 8th) and I have no motivation to go to the doctor. I'm coming up on 7 weeks and 3 days and haven't even made my appointment yet. All my others I was ready to go but this one I'm actually nervous about going for. Anyone else felt like that? We were suppose to go see a fertility dr in January and were holding off getting pregnant again but this one happened(yes we used protection). I feel like such a horrible person for feeling this way :/.