No babies

So I received this today! I delivered my precious oct 25,16 @16wks then had a d&c; march 20,2017 @ 12wks my 2nd angel would have been here sept29,17. I was just reminded I'm not getting ready to deliver, I'm not buying a crib, stroller, car seat, pampers, wipes nothing. I had been ok, we decided not to try again and got my iud put in but this just brought back my pain.