birthday blues

Jaimee

so today is my 20th birthday....I'm also 34weeks 3 days pregnant. I've never enjoyed my birthday since my grandfather passed, my husband doesn't seem to quite understand my dislike for it and tries very hard to plans stuff to celebrate. I feel so bad but I honestly would just rather spend my birthday at home in my pj's watching netflix or playing video games instead of being out and about visiting family and what not. he ends up getting super stressed or mad thinking I'm just not getting what I want and we end up fighting. but I fake enjoying it and he still ends up upset..what do I do?