I haven't seen my partner in weeks because I was home caring for a loved one that's just passed. The past two nights I've been back at home have been absolutely amazing and I felt so much fondness for him and gratitude to be back together again. Tonight, at a friend's party, we meet a girl who just moved to the city. He felt she was "lonely" so invited her to come hang out in our neighborhood/village. I thought this was a bit off and later shared with him how I thought it was a slightly inappropriate since I'm going to be back with my family soon, he'll clearly be the only one around to entertain her. I left it at that and really that's all I meant by it - it's inappropriate. He got really rageful and was like I cant believe you're accusing me on cheating on you. Your such a fucking thin-skinned bitch - you ruin everything. Then he started throwing things around the house saying ever since I arrived he can't find anything. Gave me two giant middle fingers and literally yelled in my face and said he was going to kick me out of the house. I was just so shocked and disappointed in him - what he said, the disrespect, the rage, the aggression, how he couldn't control himself. I haven't seen him in so long and really just wanted/needed him to be a rock for me right now. Worse yet, we are supposed to get married next month and, as planned, I'm going away to be with family until the wedding. I'm having major doubts and am booking a counseling session for tomorrow. We've been here before - he will justify his behavior saying it's all my fault because "I accused him of cheating." It's always my fault somehow that I got yelled at - it's always justified. And so even though I didn't accuse him of 'cheating,' he will get that stuck in his head and to justify how he treated me. Im thinking of pushing the wedding back but I know this will cause 'major' issues bw us and may even do irreparable damage... But I just don't know how I can say yes to a future with a man who looses respect like that. I know he was drunk, but still.... It's so damaging and hurtful to be on the receiving end and because we haven't seen eachother much lately, I can't even let myself feel upset... I have to let it go to make the most of the few days we have together here and there. Has anyone been here before?