It's like damn how muchgoddamn longer do I have to feel this way!!?? 😫 We've stopped talking for almost a year now, he won't see me or speak to me. I didn't cheat but we got in a really big fight and I said some fucked up shit. I've been doing my best to move on. Stopped dating. Started yoga. Reading more. I even took a trip to the Big Island at the end of summer, thinking it would be a spiritual journey cleansing me of my unshakable love for this guy. I started dating again still doesn't work. Try keeping my options open and here I am. Still in love. Still wanting to talk. I wish we could at least talk. But he wants absolutely nothing to do with me. All the guys I've talked to are complete idiots or unavailable. I don't have many friends and there's not very many people I like to be around. But don't I deserve a chance, don't I deserve for someone to want to talk to me late at night.... I don't get how other girls can have so many guys in and out of their lives but I can't keep anyone around. I feel alone and sad a lot of the time during the night cause I just don't understand what I have to do to get over my ex.