I'm 5 weeks PP so the day is itching ever nearer. hopefully. it may be hard to believe but I've always had the higher sex drive in the relationship but we are both going crazy from the wait, it's like we are dating all over again. the tease and the newness of it.... But honestly part of me is really SCARED. I'm scared of the pain and scared it will feel differently... he reassures me that he is just as turned on by me, and loves me even more, and he is SO sweet... but I seriously hate how I look now. I'm still trying to be okay with myself. so my question is how was your first time??