Nervous, worried, and even terrified

Angela

me and my hubby were trying for a year and a half before finally getting pregnant with my first baby. I had a beautiful baby boy April this year and me and my hubby are wanting to try for another one now. It took so long before because I had PCOS and I'm terrified that it'll be the same process all over again. I'm nervous to start actively trying again because of all the tears and disappointment every month. I'm worried to disappoint me and my hubby if my body still won't function normally, but we both really want another baby. we both really want to be able to have a baby girl too. if my cycle is normal ill be ovulating this weekend but im scared to even test for that because that was my first sign 2 yrs ago that i had PCOS. does anyone have any suggestions? I'm nervous to even tell my hubby I might be ovulating because I don't want to disappoint him if I don't because my body might still not work...