I don't know what it is, but I keep fucking things up with this guy. We text all the time and he is just about everything I'd like in a guy. I can be freaky with him and silly and sometimes even friendly. When we first started talking he seemed more open to be fwb but he also wasn't closed to a relationship. I remember him saying he's just going with the flow.

He was nice and we' d always small talk about my day and his day. We'd text all day and I know he was happy.

I kept messing things up by acting out because he was too chill almost boring sometime(which was dumb of me to think I know) and I think it bothered me because I was scared. It's really sad that Its been a long time since a guy has treated me/ given me no problems, that when a different guy finally does I'm too afraid to let things pan out.

We literally argue all the time and then have great conversations, and then sext, the repeat.

At this point it's obvious that he is only wanting fwb, and I know it's because I can't relax. 😔I just don't know how to handle trusting people.

I've even explained this to him but not to long after I'd be crazy again. By crazy I mean I'd push for things to be more serious and then change my mind and become distant. My fear of letting go and trusting causes me to be aggressive and it's all because I'm scared of where things will go.

We are so compatible but I think I ruined things