It's always about what he wants not what I want.

If I want to go somewhere to spend time with him outside of the house after he gets off work (2pm) he ALWAYS has an excuse as to why not.

And all he does ALL day is play video games and smoke weed until it's time to go to bed.

I asked him to take me to the store because, I don't have my car right now and I'm not comfortable with driving his truck yet. (His brakes suck and they scare me.)

And he made an excuse to just go tomorrow.

If I wanted to go tomorrow I would have asked tomorrow!

It makes me so mad that it's always about what he wants and what I want basically doesn't matter.

I'm depressed and tired of being in the house. I asked to go to Walmart to get some chocolate and bubble bath so I could take a warm bath and relax but, it's too fucking difficult!!

I even brought up that he can stay in the air conditioned truck while I run in for 5 minutes.

But, so difficult and then I talked to him about it and he started bringing up other things he does.

But those other things aren't relevant to going somewhere with me to spend time just us.

And those other things don't have to do with a simple fix to help me relax and feel good about myself for an hour.

I love him.

I do.

But, living with him is so fucking hard.

And no, I'm not going to break up with him.