My husband works out of state, so we barely see eachother. He had almost 2 weeks off so we've been together. He leaves in 2 days and we have been fighting every single day. He will be gone for 4 months, I don't have a car, and it's too far for a bus to get where I need to go. My dad is the only person we know that lives around here. We have no friends. Every day instead of finding someway to figure things out, he keeps saying "ask your dad" "your dad can take you" "he can take you to get food and all your appointments"

But here's the catch. My dad let a rapist around me when I was little, knowing he raped multiple other girls. Well, at the age of 14.. he let me spend the night with him and what do you know, I was raped. He didn't want me going to the police. He supported this guy financially while he was in prison and now, he lets him around all the grandchildren, they go out a lot together.. etc. so I'm sorry I hate my dad. I can't ever ask him for help, he's the reason why I lost everything. He let someone hurt me and didn't care.

I have been trying for years to get my husband to understand this but he can't. He loves my dad. He says he can't picture him ever doing that because he's so nice. But he did. I told him today to please stop bringing it up and to help me figure out a different way. He started screaming at me saying that I have no reason to be upset with my dad because he "does everything for me" (he tries to do things for me probably out of guilt but I don't let him) and saying that he has to quit. But I told him if I had to, I would walk, uber, taxi, find someone or something to get a way before I ever called my dad for help. I begged him to help me that night I was raped and he didn't. I don't want his help.

He then began yelling saying he has to quit, because I "refuse" to come with him to a different state. I can't because I have very important doctor appointments and I can't just switch doctors. He then grabbed me and held my arms. He said he wasn't trying to hurt me but it definitely scared me.

I then asked for a divorce and walked away. He's crying in the other room and it's killing me but I don't know what to do.. am I wrong?