this is so difficult

i dont think i can do this anymore. my fiancé just returned back to work two days ago after staying with me & our nb & helping me out. i want to commit to being a stay at home mom but it's so hard . i get no sleep now because i have to be up taking care of my two week old so my fiancé can sleep since he works in the mornings. i had a c section also, but im tired of crying, im drained, my LO is now constipated too & im trying to help him but its hard because he starts crying hysterically. i have no income on my part & i have to depend on my fiancé. i just dont know what to do anymore i wish i can go back in time & change everything. please give me advice