Depression 😩

Hola! Ladies well I'm feeling more and more depressed lately . I've been trying to get pregnant ive had signs but the test came bvk negative twice . And as we speak while I'm writing this I'm starting to have an anxiety attack . Now I'm pushing away from everyone I'm going bvk to drinking . Maybe it's bc I can't get pregnant I don't know but times I started crying . I've had dreams of me having a baby it was a baby boy maybe I'm going crazy 😞😞😞😞.