I want to touch the guy I'm with and I'm 100% sure he wants me to touch him and yes I mean hand job how do you start what do you do how do I not be so awkward about it if it's my first time I mean I've watched porn so I'm not uneducated as to what a penis looks like but I'm so nervous I guess I'm thinking I will do something wrong and that's making me awkward/ nervous any advice please!!!!