for people that has lost loved ones.....

i just lost my grandmother whom i loved dearly..... i have no idea what I'll do next..... how will i live without her... i have no idea if i even want to go to her funeral.... i cant imagine facing her dead body.... how did you manage? how do you keep from being sad? does it get better through time? please help me.... i feel like im crushed inside.... how were you able to get over the fact that the person you loved is gone forever and you will never see them, touch them, hear their voice again...? i am now facing one of my biggest fears....... she just left with no goodbye all of a sudden..... September 7 2017 and any other year on that day will forever be the worst day of my life! will this ever change.... will i ever feel better... please talk to me.... how did you get over a close family member's death in your family.... and social media makes things so worse.... reminding me everytime i get on that i lost my heart people sending condolences and telling you shes in a better place now doesnt make anything better......... gosh this is my first time losing someone in my life.... and sadly not the last.... how will i survive something like this ......