I just don't want to move, or be fully awake. I spend my life distracting myself with work food and films because being present just makes me feel so low. I don't have a bad life but I feel stagnant. Like anything I try I'll quit so what's the point. I just want to sleep all the time and not think or be responsible for myself. I don't feel in tune with my body or my mind and it's a powerless feeling.