I love you. It hurts so bad that you can't trust me. I am jealous of the women who had you first, and angry that they took away what parts of you I would love to have. I remember when you got drunk that night in the kitchen and told me that you gave your ex girlfriend every ounce of you, and I remember that I got angry and started crying, understanding why you couldn't do the same for me, but begging you to anyway. I'm so sorry that she hurt you, but I am not her. I will not hurt you, no matter how much it hurts me to not have your trust. I would never break it. I give you every piece of me. I know you cannot do this for me because of how mean she was, to open her legs to someone else for both years you were together. You were together four YEARS ago, But I love you now. I have you now. SHE doesn't. it's me, I'm new, start over, God, please just let me start with what you gave to her.. I'm so jealous of what you gave to her....