I have had 3 pregnancy losses , the last one was an ectopic which was the scariest experience of my life , my brother and his wife are due to have their baby any day now , lets just say i'm less than excited i'm nervous about my reaction if that makes sense ... i'm supposed to ttc this month, being put on some new meds (asprin and predisone plus synthetic t4 for antibodies) but i dont have much hope just been so use to losses. My MIL today also told me and my husband that his cousin was having twins , i had twins my first mc ... and my evil brain cant stop wishing for someone to loose their baby so i dont feel so left out ...