Huge decision and in need of support.

So for the last 7 months, I've been in California doing everything treatment. Detox, residential, intense out patient, sober living. Everything. March 2, 2017 is my clean date and at this moment I have 199 days clean and sober. I am an addict/alcoholic. I'm 22 and my addiction started when I was 14/15. For 7 years I was using heavily. Since my addiction started so young, I never developed my self worth, image, or respect. I never knew who I was till this journey of treatment. I'm so beyond proud of myself and unbelievably grateful for the support I receive from my mom and people in my family and friends. But my time in treatment is finally coming to an end. I'm scared, nervous, anxious but confident, happy, and motivated.

So I've had to make a huge decision on where I want to live. A place that I would comfortable, safe, and most importantly, remain clean and sober. As much as I wish and would love to stay in California, I've decided to go to my moms in New Hampshire. Home for me is in Maine. So I wouldn't be far but I'm not worried about that too much. I never used in New Hampshire so that's the best part. But my depression is start there. So I moved to Maine to my dad's at 15. That's when my addiction started. I'm confident and trust myself that I will remain clean through whatever happens though. My mom has been my biggest supporter always so it's good I'll be with her. Also my boyfriend is coming with me to NH. I am nervous about that but I believe in him. He doesn't have nearly as much clean time as me. There are going to be rules and structure at my moms house. I'm worried about fighting with her about petty shit...I don't want to be treated like a child. There's a bunch of other things I could say but that's the gist...

Idk my thoughts are going in circles so I'm just looking for some support. If anyone could give their kind words, advice, opinions, anything..I would greatly appreciate it. Thank you💕