I think I'm having a chemical 😞

Last Tuesday I had a faint positive that even my SO saw. Over the last week I have seen my lines gradually fade to stark white. I had a missed miscarriage in June and now this. My body has done me so dirty these last few months and its so incredibly depressing. With my first it was an "accident" with this one I'm stable. Have my masters and a great job. Stable secure home with the ability to get what I want. All except for a baby with the love of my life.