I just can't handle the disappointment anymore. It's been over 2 years and nothing. we can't afford fertility doctors and my husband is older than I am and I just don't see it happening anytime soon. I'm tired of crying monthly because my period comes. I'm tired of wasting money on opks and pregnancy tests. I'm tired of being upset when I see people post that they are pregnant. I just can't do it anymore. It's exhausting. It's eating me alive. I want a child of my own and it just isn't going to happen for me. I can't keep stressing about it like I am. I suppose it will never happen and if it does then it will be a miracle. I just can't keep living like this