This dog is honestly happier than I am. I mean I'm happy right now, but I want to be like really really happy. Okay I do get a bit depressed, but power through it because I'm tired of being sad. All I want is to be the happiest person in the world. I just know I'm missing something in my life to complete the process. Since that something never happens I still continue to be the anti social, shy, quiet, but sometimes (trying to make it most of the time) happy and very talkative girl. I usually never talk about my emotions or mental health. I've actually cried because I just want some people or at least one person that will stick by me and I'd do the same for them. That is what's missing. I've tried and I failed. I cried because I don't have a best friend that hangs out with me almost everyday. I don't gave anyone to text, call, facetime.... I'm a mess tbh. I've been alone for about 3 almost 4 years now. I have too much anxiety, my depression isn't really that bad, but it's still there and I hate it. I think too much, I change my mind too much. I really want it to stop.