I feel crazy.

Doctors have told me that it's going to be practically impossible for me to naturally conceive...I told my husband that I just felt weird lately...like I could be pregnant. He said I was crazy because it would be really hard and he pulls out every time. Well, sure enough, I'm late on my period. Like almost a week late. I keep testing and all I keep getting is BFN. But I've been cramping and sore and only one nipple hurts pretty dang bad. But still no aunt flow...

Then today, I was cleaning the kitchen and I found an old Chinese fortune on the floor in my garbage cubby. Something told me to read it, and it said "something you've been hoping for is soon to come your way."

I had a serious and dangerous ectopic pregnancy in January after a year of trying to get pregnant. After that I've been praying so hard that I could get my rainbow baby...I want it so bad. But I haven't really been thinking about it due to the fact that my doctors have all told me it's nearly impossible...but now I'm hoping. I know it sounds crazy but I keep testing every day, waiting for that BFP. I don't think I'm going to get it...