My world is collapsing...💔

I have never felt more devastated. Today we learned our little baby has stopped growing. I turn 31 in two days and I am numb to the world. Our third chance at having a baby in a year & a half ...and our third experience with grief and heartbreak. I cannot understand. Fertility is abundant, the life, the people all around us. Yet, here I am. Crying my eyes out, holding my tummy, begging that my baby does not leave me. Not again. This cannot happen again. The pain and heart break is unreal and almost impossible to fathom. We learned only a week ago that those faint lines were in fact our little miracle trying to live.... I can't tell you how beautiful my world has been the past week... and now the pieces of that reality are falling down & caving in around me and all that's left is a vast nothingness. The pain is unbearable.

I am so sorry to every person ever having to experience any loss/miscarriage. I know we must have hope, but it feels more impossible now than ever to find it. Peace be with us all 💖🙏🏻