I was exhausted, I was stressed, I was angry. The first week was so hard for me, I couldn't even communicate with my husband since my mom stayed and helped me the whole week. I was tired of the non stop visits. I didn't feel a connection with my baby since I never had alone time with him. I didn't feel like his mom. I was emotional and crying everyday! I was tired of people claiming my baby as if he didn't belong to me! I was treated like a surrogate.. and felt like one. Until now, I feel so much better. I FINALLY spent a lot of time alone with my son. I'm finally able to talk to him. To actually feel like his mom. I don't feel sad much anymore. I don't feel the emptiness like I did in the beginning. I finally feel a connection with my baby. It sucks that I wasn't granted that special bonding time with him right away, Like every mom should. But i'm finally glad I was able to form that bond. Josiah, I'm glad that i'm your Mother! I want to do the best for you, and I want what's best for you! Words can't explain how I feel about you!!❤❤❤