My post about me needing mental help and how I have become physically violent towards my dogs and stuff was deleted. I don't mean to hurt them or anyone, I like black out and don't realize what I have done till after and then I hate myself. But I talked to my husband last night and finally talked him into helping me get checked into mental health facility. I told him I would probably be in there a few weeks at least so I will probably have to quit my job. He doesn't think I will be in there that long, but we shall see. Thanks for the support and such. I hope I can figure this out so I can keep my sweet doggies.