Other than the fucking bleeding and cramps, what’s something inconvenient and shitty about your cramps specifically? I feel like ranting about this because I’m in so much fucking pain right now, so please join me and rant away.

Here’s my shitty list:

- I hate that when I wear pads, sometimes I just end up bleeding on one side of the fucking pad (I’m talking overnight pads), and therefore I end up bleeding through my underwear and pants. WHY DOES THIS HAPPEN, I always adjust my underwear just so it doesn’t but it always doesssss. Wtf is wrong with you vaginaaaaa?!!!??

- I hate that I get so fucking cold AND hot at the same time. Like I’m constantly putting on and taking off my sweater throughout the day. Or I have to sleep with a comforter and have the fan on at the same time. I want to die. Ughhh.

- I hate how super horny I get but can’t do anything about it because I’m not into period sex. Like I need twelve men fucking me is the kind of horny I get but it’s a bloody mess down there and I’m dying. Ughhhh.

- I hate how shaky my hands get because I’m anemic, so I end up dropping everything throughout the day. Makes me sad and annoyed.

- I hate how I have to sit on the cold fucking toilet for a good hour every fucking time I get my period just so my uterus and ass can empty itself from its bloody and shitty demons. All while trying to hold back the urge to puke my brains out.

- I hate how hungry I get but how sick I get when I even think of food. Why? WHY.

- I hate how much I want to cry and punch things but have to pretend that everything is fucking dandy.

- I just hate, hate, hate how I have to pretend I’m okay and show no signs of pain or discomfort throughout the day because I don’t want anyone at work to worry about me or think that I can’t handle the job. I hate how weak I feel because of my period and how weak others make me feel (directly or indirectly) because I’m a woman who has her period. I hate how I refuse to take days off from work because I don’t want my period to be my weakness or dominate my life. I hate feeling all these symptoms throughout the day and having to hold back my tears, pain, and anger from everyone. I hate my period but I won’t go on birth control because of all the risks and side effects. It’s so unfair. It’s so unfair. It’s so fucking unfair.