Postpartum weight

Anyone else having a hard time not being depressed about their postpartum weight?! I went from a size 6 pre-pregnancy to now a 10/12 6 weeks postpartum. I gained about 50 lbs. lost about 25 lbs after having baby. None of my clothes fit! I don't have any sexual desire simply because I don't feel sexy.... I'm doing my best to be kind to myself and yeah, I'm amazed that my body carried a human, but still! I'm breastfeeding and watching my diet, I was just hoping to have a little more of a jumpstart than I got.

Ok. Rant over.