Breakup

Today my boyfriend broke up with me, 2 days before my birthday which kinda sucks. I relied on him so much and his reason ending it was because he just doesn't feel as if a relationship is right for him. I understand that and realise I just have to respect how he feels. He is at school now so we haven't spoken about it properly yet, all he said it's he can't do it anymore pretty much. So I am not 100% sure about what's happening atm. I'm at home sick and can't stop thinking about it. This was the guy I lost my virginity too and fell in love with. I don't know what to do to get through it and the thought of not having him as "mine" kills me.