Feeling down tonight... Vent.

Sara • Started seriously ttc 5/10/17 after 10 yrs of 'if it happens...' marriage. Long history of PCOS. IUI 11/12/17

I had my first round of Femara/Trigger/TI this past cycle. It didn't work. I was 5 days late this month, started today. I still owe $800 to my clinic from my HSG and can't continue treatment until it's paid. I haven't even gotten my bill for this cycle of appointments and ultrasounds. So I'm just frustrated all around. I feel like I'm going so deep into debt trying to get pregnant, will I have anything left over to care for a child?! A customer at work asked me today if I'm pregnant. I was polite and told her 'no, but we're trying!' with a big smile... while I was dying silently inside. I'm glad we were busy, I didn't have time to go cry in the bathroom like I really wanted to. I'm sorry to rant, just needed to let it out!