Excuse my pity party but...

I've recently experienced 2 sudden deaths in one day. My cousin and my husband's grandpa. I wasn't able to go to my husband's grandpas funeral because my cousin's was the same day and same time, so we agreed to go separately. I guess I should also be reaching out, but nobody has reached out to me to see how I'm handling it. Not my in laws, not even my friends, except on FB of course, but nobody has checked on me to see how I'm dealing with all of this. A double death of people you love is devastating. I'm not discounting my in laws grief, but I feel so alone. My husband can't exactly grieve with me because he's grieving his grandpa. I feel terrible I can't be there for much support for him because of the pain I feel from my cousin's very sudden death. I feel so alone. Why doesn't anyone care?