Hi girls,

I am more sad this month to get a visit from Aunt Flo a week earlier. I was actually excited to wait these two next weeks and like many of us had hope to know if this was my month.

I haven't checked in with a gynecologist or any specialist to see if I have any infertility issues. My boyfriend and I have been trying to conceive since July. I haven't used any ovulation tests. I barely started using pre seed this month. I must admit my diet isn't the best one yet, I eat out twice or three times throughout the whole week. I haven't exercised due to a work injury over a month now. I've been stressed not only about conceiving but also about work and school. I know we all hear about not stressing about TTC, but cmon how can we not? I am a hispanic and there's like a thing Hispanic people say about going with people to give you a massage and place your womb in the right spot. Sometimes it tends to be lower due to pushing or lighting too much weight. So I went with a nice lady that prayed and gave me the massage over a month ago.

Today I am just feeling so soooo sad about getting my period. I can't help to think about what ifs. I am so scared to find out if something is wrong with me. I honestly would be devastated if I found out I can't carry a baby and be a mom. It is one of my truest wishes and I don't want to give up but I really don't know what to think or do anymore..