I ran out of time for an epidural! 😳😬

Sorry I know this is long...

It was a normal Thursday. 4 days til my due date. I wasn't working anymore so I had been cleaning up the house and getting ready for baby to come. I was convinced I would go passed my due date...first babies are normally late. Even though at my dr. Appointment a week before I was already 2 centimeters dilated!

So later that night when my husband and I had gotten into bed around 10:30pm I had started feeling some pains...not too bad just uncomfortable enough to notice. After I had a few I told my him and we tried to time them but they didn't seem to have any pattern. So he went to sleep and I sat up worried I was in labor. Lol so about an hour later I'm laying there in bed and my water broke! Also something I never thought would happen. I was even just txting my brotherwho is an EMT, It wasn't going to brake cause not everybody's does. Lol So I jumped up woke up my husband and ran to the bathroom...Made it just in time! Lol 😂

We got to the hospital around 12am. By then I was 3 cm dilated. So they got me to a room. I told the nurse I wasn't against an epidural but I'd like to wait and until the contractions got worse. They still weren't bad at all. I did have group B strep so I had to have an IV. And honestly that was worse than the contractions. It was like my arm was on fire! So I asked for some pain killers to help some. That just made me dizzy and I didn't really like it. But it did stop my arm from burning. So A few hours in and it still wasn't feeling terrible I was starting to feel the contractions more but I never felt the need to yell or scream in pain or have them stuck a needle in my back. 😳 I'm also not one of those people to show how much pain I'm in when I don't know them too well. My husband and my mom are the only ones I really let know how I'm feeling but with my in-laws and nurses and dr.s there I just kept telling myself "it's not that bad, it will be over soon." Around noon the midwife on call came in and talked to me and said "well I think it's still going to be a looong while cause you are still smiling and look ok"

And I'm thinking in my head " what do you know lady?! Every time I get a contraction I'm starting to yell inside! And some people smile when things are uncomfortable!" This was the first time I had ever met that lady and she didn't make a good first impression. She didn't even check me to see if I had dilated more! a little later I decided I wanted to go sit in the tub for a little bit. My nurse (who was amazing😇) stopped me and want to check how many cm I was before I got in. I was 7cm! I thought "we'll what's the point of an epidural now." She gave me the ok but warned me not to stay in too long cause I was moving alone a lot faster than they thought. The jets helped some but I started to get too hot. By the time I got back to the bed I was really feeling the constructions. Still never saying a word just clinging into the bed railing for dear life. Later I was told by my family that it was creepy how calm I was! lol

Finally I was feeling like I needed to push. So my nurse had me push and push and push I swear by the end of that 2 hours if I heard them say push one more time I was going to yell at them! And the, "you're almost there", no, you are all liars!!! I was so exhausted Im pretty sure I even fell asleep for a few seconds in between contractions!🤣 Then finally after pushing for an eternity, and accidentally pulling the IV out of my arm. She was finally here!🤗 I could hear her little cry and I wanted to join her. It was over and she was here, thank God! They put her right on me. I want to say it was an instant connection but between me being so tired (I hadn't slept for about 48 hours) and everyone sticking poking and pushing on me it was hard to have a moment. All I could tell was she had a lot of dark hair and was a lil purple lol (which is normal apparently) and she had a good set of lungs and a strong grip...she grabbed my husbands finger a didn't let go! (I was told later)

honestly though all of that 17 hours was nothing compared to the after birth! According to what everyone told me (I saw nothing and I'm glad for it) the baby had her hand right up against her head when she was born so I tore a lot! Stitches inside and out. And since I ran out of time to get the epidural I felt every little stitch! I didn't scream before but I def made up for it when they were stitching me up. I know I freaked my husband out cause he didn't really know what was happening. any time I'd try to tell him what could happen he didn't want to know, which I understood I didn't want to know a whole lot either. so he just saw a lot of blood and heard me yelling like I was dying. After it was all over he hugged me crying "you scared me...I didn't know what was happening to you." I reassured him I was fine. Then he said, "I think you love me more now." 😭😍 (he always tells me he loves me more)

Also apparently red heads bleed more that most but I guess it's true all the nurse were there and ready. And they were right. They told me I did lose a good amount of blood.

TMI WARNING: Earlier when I was pushing I guess some blood caught an air pocket so when I pushed blood when everywhere! 😝And got all over my nurse. 😬 again I had no idea at the time. But she really was the best nurse she came back later in new scrubs and wet hair. Poor thing 😕

So yeah I didn't think it was possible to have my labor be one of the most calming and pretty comfortable things I've done and the most exhausting and the worst pain I've ever had all together!

But really I got the best gift from God that day so it could have all been terrible and I wouldn't have changed a thing! I love my baby girl! And after everything calmed down I get that moment with her and it was perfect!

Also I need to give a shout out to my husband...anything I needed he got me. He even helped me go to the bathroom. And he's the one that told me from the beginning, "the door has to be closed when you use the bathroom!" Lol but he did a great job being there for me never said much but that's how he is. And that's what I needed...I just wanted him there right with me. He is the best! 😍

It's been seven months since she was born. And my whole body doesn't cry with the thought Of having another baby anymore. Lol but we are just enjoying our life now. We have plenty of time to give her a little brother or sister. 😜

Here's some pics of that day!

Annabelle Sarah

Born: 2/10/17

Weight: 6 lbs 11oz

Hight: 18"

Just starting out

Just born

So happy

She's gotten so big! And is the happiest baby ever! 😍🤗💜