My father is a control freak. I dont mean that he need to have a plan, I mean he feels the need to know where I am and what I am doing at all times. I'm 19 and he doesn't allow me to drive, go to school, get a job or even walk my dog. He allows me to go to my grandmother's house only if I respond to hourly texts and he stays in contact with my grandmother constantly. Texting every half an hour to make sure I'm with her. I have no history of drugs or any inaproproate behaviour and he justifies it by telling me I am "unstable" and "naive". I've spent the last year trying to learn to drive and make friends behind his back while at my grandmother's house where she lets me see friends and encourages me to get my licsence but I won't be able to see my grandmother as often anymore so I'll be stuck at 'home'. I'm not sure what to do and I have no where else to go. My father won't even let me have my state ID card. I have no life experience and no money. I feel hopeless and have considered going to a shelter but there's none available to me in my town. I've even had thoughts of suicide just to get out of this situation but I can't seem to bring myself to act on it.

I feel trapped and useless and lonely. I don't know what to do.