I met this kid in seventh grade and that was when I thought the need to want a boyfriend. So for seventh grade we were basically just friends with the title. because we didn’t know how anything worked. i ended up liking him in the ending of eighth grade. That’s when i started kissing him and you know it kinda got real. however we were still very immature and it was an on and off situation. we never went to the same school and we saw each other a good amount of times like maybe every weekend. it started getting super real when i would go to his house but we still always had petty arguments (summer going into ninth) so all was good i guess until ending of November we started doing foreplay like oral and such. and of course one thing led to another and we had unprotected sex. but it wasn’t even like that like we didn’t go the full time we tried to do it but i was too tight and it just wasn’t even working out. so we just went back to foreplay. anyways, he told his twin brother this happened , but a bit of a backstory his twin brother had a problem with us dating for some reason he would just make me look like such a bad person in front of his parents. so whatever he ended up snitching on my bf to his parents and they got really upset , he called me later that night saying we weren’t aloud to date and such. i was heart broken but there was nothing we could do about it. we still would text but we weren’t aloud to , but we ended up cutting each other off and not talking at all that was how it was for a like a while but we would always find ourselves texting eachtother and drawn back to each other. i never left his side. ever. i ended up going to this party and meeting this kid which i ended up liking and i felt infatuated , my ex found out and was heart broken. I was having the time of my life doing something different but then again I thought I was over him, but I realize I wasn’t. I ended up getting cheated on by the kid i met at the party. so yea that was in ninth, I’m now in 10th grade and i transferred high schools and now i go to the same school as my ex. we realize how strong our bond was and we’re just drawn to each other extremely strongly. it’s hard to deny there’s not something there because we both feel so strong for each other. but his brother is in the way and will snitch on him if he sees us together. but I try so hard to keep distance from him but it’s so hard. I always feel the need to hug him and just be happy with him, but he always tells me how he doesn’t want to get in trouble and he wants this just as bad as I do so he’s trying not to get in trouble but I’ve been always there for him for the longest time and I don’t know I feel like my mind is telling me to let go because I don’t want to get hurt but my heart doesn’t want to. we had to secretly hang out and his brother ended up finding out that we hung out, and he says he scared that his parents are going to make him transfer because there has been so much going on with us I just feel like his parents shouldn’t force him to do things instead give him advice but I don’t know what to do anymore because this is affecting me I get hurt by this every day. any advice on what to do , i’m so in love with him.