These past 8 months!!

These past 8 months have been ruff for me.. This the most I ever felt so low all I did was cry. Not feel beautiful inside or out.. Didn't feel like I had support . No nuffin I felt like this process I went thru alone!! N it hurts cuz I always thought wish n hope it would get better n etc. but no it didn't . I still work a full time job at 32 weeks I be in so much pain.. My legs hurt my back my stomach n more.. These 8 months i begged my kids father to help me do this n that n still nuffin.. I even seen him writing other females n sending them pictures of himself. Like that hurts the most really made me feel like I wasn't nuffin at all.. He got fired from both his jobs .. So I gotta bust my butt so I can take care of the kids alone.. I cry so much it hurts I don't have no one to talk to nuffin.. So I try to do my best fake like I'm happy n go on with my days!! Trust me it's hard n it hurts like hell.. 😓